I had an audition today. It was supposed to be just like any other audition. Go in, do my thing, two minutes later leave.
But I arrived 15 minutes early and they were 15 minutes behind, so I sat waiting for 30 minutes. If I know anything, I know this: auditioning is a complete mind game. And the longer I wait for my turn, the more my mind screams RUN, GET OUT, WHAT ARE YOU EVEN DOING HERE! If I have the time to get nervous, I will. So usually I arrive close to my time slot, go to the bathroom, fix my hair, take a breath, and go do my thing.
But I waited for 30 minutes today.
And my audition went something like this.
Moniter: "Whitney Rap...rap...Rapahna"
Me: "Rappana"
Her: "Yes, you are next"
I walked into the room feeling sort of light, ya know, like when your keys or phone are missing. I realized I forgot my music book in the hallway (some douche..I mean, uh, some nice guy who didn't have a clue what he was doing, pushed it under the bench so he could sit down).
Me: "OH JEEZE, haha, wait one minute"
My heels: "click click click click click"
Me: "All right! Whew Mr. Piano Man, I'm glad you are sitting right there to remind me what I came here to do"
Everyone: "chuckle chuckle"
Me: "Introduction..blah blah blah. Monologue...blah blah blah."
I go to start my song, and CAN NOT remember the first line. Like really CAN. NOT. Mr. Nice Piano Man tells me, and then I sing it, then I forget my second line.
Mr. Nice Piano Man : "Don't worry, just start from the beginning."
Me:"................."
I try, and still...NOTHING.
Now I have messed up songs before. I have forgotten words, missed a note, mumbled a phrase from lack of concentration, but have always gotten back on track. I have been able to sort of pull myself out of the ditch that I dig. Sometimes without anyone even noticing. But not today.
I laughed, and the 12 people (yes, that's right, 12 people watching this audition) were incredibly kind and understanding and they laughed too. In my charming and adorable way, I crack a few jokes and end up just looking over Mr. Nice Piano Man's shoulder to sing my song. (which sounded beautiful, I mean let's be real. I don't forget stuff AND not have talent)
He hits the last chord and I say, "Wow, wasn't that fun! Whew, thanks for hanging in there with me"
Everyone laughs and I thank them and leave.
So yeah. That was a new experience. And that's all I have to say about that.
